A couple of days ago, I was in Hobby Lobby purchasing some last minute items to finish up my holiday gift wrapping. Of course it was packed with lots of women in "Christmas frenzy mode". To be honest it was one of those days where my mind was in a million places other than the giftwrapping aisle. A feeling of unsettledness seem to be closely present. After a few minutes of wondering through the aisle, I stopped and asked myself "where is this unsettled feeling coming from?" I then heard the Lord gently speak to my heart and I heard the word "disappointment". In that quiet moment of awareness, I knew it was true. If it would have been appropriate to sit on the ground and start crying I probably would have, but, I think that may have been frowned upon by my fellow Hobby Lobby shoppers. LOL. I continued my shopping and loaded up the car. I then sat in silence for a few moments in the drivers seat. I am the type of person who likes to have a game plan. If there's a problem, I like to know a solution or at least a way to navigate towards the solution. Here's what came to my heart.
When dealing with disappointment: 1) Don't be in denial with where you are. Be honest with yourself. I think denial is an enemy to freedom. I don't believe that living out of a place of disappointment is healthy, but, I do believe that there are most definitely quiet times of reflecting and healing.
2) Don't stop giving. Often times I feel if I'm not in a place of "Annie A Game", I don't have anything to give anyone else. But the truth is, the good that flows from my life if only Jesus. I believe giving is what breaks down a victim mentality. I'm not going to say I understand quite how this works. But, I will say when I live it out, it just works! 3) Keep a close rein on your thoughts during times of disappointment. Where the mind goes, the man follows. 4) We must stay open with the Father about our feelings. He created us and what we feel doesn't scare him. And he really already knows before we open up to him about it anywat. He gets me and he gets you to.
After these helpful truths came to mind, I then proceed to pull out of the Hobby Lobby parking lot. As i did I see this fitting window decal on the back of an SUV. Do I think it was a coincidence? Definitely not! The sticker said "your story is not over yet" with a semi colon. After a little research, I found that this window decal with the semi colon is branded by a movement that helps to see people live from a place of wholeness and overcome life controlling issues. But in that moment I knew it was the Father's heart to me. As I read it on the back of that SUV I could hear him say, "Your story is not over". I've held onto this story for the last couple of days and really felt like it was appropriate to share it with friends that may be able to relate. Sometimes the most wonderful time of the year for some can be the hardest time of the year for others. And if that's you, that's OK. One thing I am learning on the journey of life is that things don't have to be perfect to be good. For some of you, it may be another Christmas where you haven't seen the promise fulfilled. Some of you may come from insteresting family dynmaics and the holidays can tend to bring up lots of emotions. If you find yourself in a similar category to these, I hope this life story brings you encouragement. Just know, some chapters of life are good and some just aren't, but the truth is your story isn't over!